a new month

Its already september month , i guess all the form 3 students are busy studying for the upcoming PMR exam which is in october . i wish all of them good luck and dont stress yourself up . normally my sister will be asking me to study and study but now she is no longer here to yell or teach me anymore . losing her the pain still hurts . i keep telling myself i need to strugle just for 2 months until pmr is over then i can do what i want . so i will keep that promise to myself . not everyone is born to smart that is what my sister used to tell me . i really miss you alot sis.. i love you .

My days

These few days , i miss my sister even more as i want to see her i wont have the chance anymore to see her , i regret that i didn spend more time with her . Her death really gave me a big shock that i cant accept it . Till today i cant forget whatever things that happen even when i sleep also i will think about it . This gave me a good lesson if i had my sister still around with me i will spend more time with her and do anything she wants . Now i have lost her and nothing can bring her back to us , we will have to move on . No matter what i will still think that you are beside us , looking at us , sharing every moment with us . I still remember when i was young , u used to bring me go around everywhere u go , now is my turn right ?? Be happy and dont worry about us . The things that u wan us to do , we will do and protect it . Rest in peace and be happy .

13 March 2011

Sorry to post this late .. have been no mood to post this ...

On this day , i have lost a very precious one .. my sis pass away on this day . she left us

we were so ..... cant believe she is gone .. so hard to acept it .. so went to see her body in mortuary , and planning for her funeral .. friends came to pay their respect .. cant believe is her in there .. broke into tears when have to tell what happen .. is just so hard .. relative came esp my grandmother and grandfather they acept it calmly ... performing prayers for her ... doin all the best things for her to go on a nice journey and good place .... on the funeral day . i had to hold her plaque while others walking behind me till the main road i sat with her to go to the crematorium .. perform last prayers and respect her coffin slowly went down .. cant bear that sight i cry out loud for her .. i dont want her to go ... without her i cant live .. i miss her so much .. i will be lonely without her ... how i wish she is still here with us .. i miss you che