2012

Its been a really long time since i wrote, its 2012 now and many changes had happen ! Its been 4 months since i moved to a new home and school since that my life changes .... The new school is very cooling as it is up on the hill and its only walking distance to school , maybe moving to a new enviroment had made me feel a little better since my sister's death but somehow i am unable to get out from the wound for her loss nothing seem to make me stop tears from flowing whenver i thought about her and it is even harder for me to talk about her . If time can really turn back i would never let her go alone but now i regret it for losing her and not protecting her when i know regretting can't solve anything , the pain for losing her is really hurtful and it will probably scar me for life with her death and i will be unable to get out of it . Nowadays i focused more on studies and i changed alot since last year and i study and study to forget those unhappy days and probably its a good start for me to think of my future and what would i want to do . My sister thaught me a lot of things and i will never ever forget her . Life is like a candle probably that is true as people goes when the candle finishes . 

a new month

Its already september month , i guess all the form 3 students are busy studying for the upcoming PMR exam which is in october . i wish all of them good luck and dont stress yourself up . normally my sister will be asking me to study and study but now she is no longer here to yell or teach me anymore . losing her the pain still hurts . i keep telling myself i need to strugle just for 2 months until pmr is over then i can do what i want . so i will keep that promise to myself . not everyone is born to smart that is what my sister used to tell me . i really miss you alot sis.. i love you .

My days

These few days , i miss my sister even more as i want to see her i wont have the chance anymore to see her , i regret that i didn spend more time with her . Her death really gave me a big shock that i cant accept it . Till today i cant forget whatever things that happen even when i sleep also i will think about it . This gave me a good lesson if i had my sister still around with me i will spend more time with her and do anything she wants . Now i have lost her and nothing can bring her back to us , we will have to move on . No matter what i will still think that you are beside us , looking at us , sharing every moment with us . I still remember when i was young , u used to bring me go around everywhere u go , now is my turn right ?? Be happy and dont worry about us . The things that u wan us to do , we will do and protect it . Rest in peace and be happy .

13 March 2011

Sorry to post this late .. have been no mood to post this ...

On this day , i have lost a very precious one .. my sis pass away on this day . she left us

we were so ..... cant believe she is gone .. so hard to acept it .. so went to see her body in mortuary , and planning for her funeral .. friends came to pay their respect .. cant believe is her in there .. broke into tears when have to tell what happen .. is just so hard .. relative came esp my grandmother and grandfather they acept it calmly ... performing prayers for her ... doin all the best things for her to go on a nice journey and good place .... on the funeral day . i had to hold her plaque while others walking behind me till the main road i sat with her to go to the crematorium .. perform last prayers and respect her coffin slowly went down .. cant bear that sight i cry out loud for her .. i dont want her to go ... without her i cant live .. i miss her so much .. i will be lonely without her ... how i wish she is still here with us .. i miss you che

Today was a really bad for me to find out things that i dont want to know at all . i dun even want to go through all this and yet i have to knw .. things are very tough an di cant handle and i reali want to cry why do i have to go through all this things and must be this year .. next year i wil be goin to form 3 and who knws my mum decided to move house i dun knw ........... i am reali sad

[ last day of tuition and finals ]

Today is my last day of tuition in suria ... but i wil continue in november i think after i get the new timetable .... 2011 is coming soon and i wil be goin to form 3 PMR year ... gosh time passes so fast and its ady going to be november .. cant wait for thursday .. jamuan class ... but ant have fun yet monday got exam ... inggeris paper 2 and pendidikan moral .... we will have exam till wednesday thursday jamuan... friday is a public holiday ... monday back to exam again ...... i hope that i can pass my finals becoz that wil depend on wat class wil u go next year and i wanna go to a top class ... i pray to god ... i may cant online for 1 or 2 weeks to study for exam .... nitez ... gud luck to all my friends who wil sit for exam .... gambateh ....

A day in reina hse ....

Todae ... went to reina's house and we hadfun ....
and she having fun and we two are being .....